I look at the sky and notice that the Heavens are there but distant. As they look down on us we notice that hell is just beneath the feet of the walking men of the earth. Going into the rasp of hell we will finally noticed that we fell hard into our souls. No one man or woman can take the pain away from you.
You choose what you do, but in the meantime notice whos heads you are stepping on.
From the heavens above to hell below, you will find out where this all goes, from one stricken soul to the next I say to you, where do you want to go? Fuck me Fuck Them Fuck everyone the only truth is where you are anchored to them. Don’t let them control or abuse you, only you can choose what to do next.
The pain that is in my soul is deeper than the core itself, The hate I have grows everyday, the pain I want to inflict is stronger everyday, the idea of love slips away everyday, the plan is going so far I can not do anything about it at this point.
I’m sick of being hurt, lied too, disregard like trash, It makes every bone in my body want to smash everything in yours. People…… This is the worst pain deep within me that I have thought of the 9 as an escape, but what good would that do? Nothing just make more problems.
My list grows every week of people I need to apologize too. This year folks has been the worst year besides last and i believe that this coming year is going to be worse. I have never hate as bad as I do right now, everyone is dishonest, failure of a human, untrustworthy, and worst they act like there your friend…..
Sit on that for a minute.
Everyone I know has turned there back on me besides my parents and family, well three quarters of my family, life is hard i get it. I truly do.
I don’t even know why I call them family,,,,,, all they did was look down upon me like I was some cow shit. Only cared for shit they couldn’t care about when It was needed the most. I feel bad for there lose (not me) he apparently was a great man.
I pray to the God or Gods to let me let go of this pain, but the lies are destroying me on the inside that I weep for the next soul who is plunged into this wraith. If your brave venture to that dark spot and find your long lost lies… I pray for you young buck. I know I am a old Bull but if you touch my son or hurt him, you’ll know the next second what’s up!!!!
BullSh!t 