Over thinking, nervous for the future? worried about the past biting you in the ass? scared to tell the truth? talking to yourself? Having the feel of impending doom, the knot in your belly not going anywhere? Millions of us are going through this just like you.
Ever wonder what would happen if you didn’t make the turn going 80mph? or picking a fight you know that you will lose, just so you can feel pain, real fucking pain. What a about something so crazy that even you in your mind would never think of. Millions of us.
Relationships are distant and crumbling like ashes being whisked away over time, dislike anyone that talks to you about pretty much everything, hiding your true side for fear of the outcome, feeling worthless and alone, Millions of us, just like you
Don’t dare to look in the mirror and tell yourself that you are beautiful, or that you love that person you see, time is consumed by your work, perhaps alcohol is involved taking some of the pain away, Millions I tell you are just like you.
Wonder what stories will be told when your gone, if you will be missed, if anyone would come to your funeral, or what would your funeral look like. That shocked look on there face when they find out how long you have felt this way. You got it Millions just like you.
Think that there is something wrong with yourself, you seem to fuck things up without knowing what you did or have done. Try to figure shit out with your own fucked up thoughts. Trying to remember the days when you were happy. Millions just like you.
Hold Up!!! ****Shit is about to hit the fan****
Post up, snap out of it and focus on the bright side you are still above the ground and can change. Maybe its not so bad, Maybe there is something out there that you can grab. Pick up a pen and paper and think of what you have done in the past and what you have today. Think about when you helped a friend or family member with a tough time in their life. What about that time at work? What about that time on that street or bus stop? There is something that you have done that you, can even in the fucked up state you are in can be proud about. Dig deep and know that you are in a shitty state but you don’t have to be in. Admit that you have fucked up and made mistakes but you are going to change for the better. It sounds hard and it is, it will take long but you need to focus on it. You didn’t get this way overnight and it will take longer to overcome but it is worth it. Going deep into your mind wont solve it, but taking chunks out of it daily will take the pain away. Tell someone that you need help and put your hand out and it will be grabbed by someone even if it is a professional. Don’t get bogged down with your thoughts, let that shit go besides you cant fix random jumping thoughts that last a split second. Practice telling people that you are sorry and what they would have you do to remedy it. And most important tell yourself that you are beautiful and that you love yourself. You cant fix everything till you fix yourself. Remember that.
If you or anyone you know struggling with depression or suicidal thoughts we are all in this together please call 1-800-273-8255. Reach out!
Thank you for reading or listening to this episode on Bull Shit.
Sincerely
Captain Cook
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